We had a meeting with the screenwriting professor, Rick Hawkins, today and I now feel that we're in a very good place as far as our story goes. Better than we've ever been. We have one of two locations locked, we're painting that Friday, and our auditions are tomorrow and Thursday. Not really sure how those are going to go...there's a possibility that it won't be very well. I'm not sure. I refuse to feel uneasy about things though. All in all things could be a lot worse.

I'm trying to keep myself positive and in order. I'm making lists and crossing things off and when I get too stressed out I just turn the music up loud in my room and dance until I make myself laugh, or take a nap and cry until I feel like I can go on again.

I know I can do this. I believe in myself. I'm proud of myself. I have very little doubts about my group; I have faith in them too.

Things are messy right now, but isn't that the nature of life? Things have to be bad before they can be good. There has to be a mess before you can clean it up. My head hurts, my heart hurts, my body hurts...but I feel good. I will be strong and I will be amazing. There is no doubt of that in my mind.

"Confront the dark parts of yourself and work to banish them with illumination and forgiveness. Your willingness to wrestle with your demons will cause your angels to sing. Use the pain as a fuel, as a reminder of your strength."
-August Wilson

Currently I am...

- At school, living in Pittsburgh, working on my P3 film "On Pins and Needles". Which is kind of a nightmare at the moment for a myriad of reasons. I am STILL surprisingly chill about it, despite the fact that I want to take a steak knife to my eyeballs every other second.

- Frought with emotional turmoil but also dealing with THAT surprisingly well. Go figure, I'm awesome.

- In need of a shower and sleep. Goodnight.