So in one of the online communities that I'm part of (bleedingbeauty_) we have monthly themes, one of which is a cybershopping challenge. You have some sort of set budget (this month it was unlimited funds) and a theme to go off of. This month it was "Your Dream Wedding". If you didn't have a budget and could spend whatever you wanted, what would you do at your wedding?

I personally have wanted a Halloween themed wedding since I was about eight years old. So I went around on photobucket and flickr and found pictures that were close to what I'd like. I don't plan on getting married until my late 20's, but I'm already pretty set in my ways. I don't claim any of these pictures as mine, by the way, they're just being used as reference.

I'd like to get married outside, on Halloween, in an old cemetary. Lots of pretty fall leaves and a cool breeze and all of that. Maybe we could have the actual ceremony performed underneath a big, twisty tree. I'd like my husband or wife and I to have plots reserved at the cemetary we get married at, so that we start and end our lives together in the same place. I don't find the idea of getting married in a cemetary morbid at all; I think it's a beautiful way to tie together life and death.

Reception hall! There will be carved Jack O' Lanterns on the tables, Trick-or-Treat favor bags, candy corn scattered on the tables, and fun games like bobbing for apples. Pumpkin pie, sushi, and turkey with mashed potatoes will be served, as well as fun Halloween foods like Witches Brew and Dirt and pigs in a blanket that look like mummies. I want a keg of Pumpking beer too.

My flowers will look exactly like this.

So, whoever's wedding photo this is, I'm sorry I yanked it off of photobucket, but I really love the colors of your bridesmaid dresses. Not the style, particularly, but the colors are exactly what I want.

I DO NOT WANT A DIAMOND RING. I think diamonds are very overrated and boring. Plus, anyone that knows me knows that I'm a pearl girl through and through. I'd want our names engraved on the inside of our rings; mine would have my spouses and vice versa. But yes. I want a fucking pearl.

Pumpkin colored high heels! Obviously these are a must.

What I'll be wearing underneath my wedding dress. Rawr.

I LOVE THIS VEIL. I want something that's similar to a 50's pillbox hat; a long, flowy veil isn't really going to cut it for me.

Obviously this isn't the exact dress that I want, but I definitely want something with a tighter bodice that is really soft and feminine at the bottom.

My reception is going to be a costume ball...and EVERYONE has to dress up. I don't care if you're 82, you will be dressed up or you won't be at my reception, end of story. I would be dressed as a swan, allowing me to wear my wedding dress and simply put on a really elegant mask like this one.

Wedding topper! Or should I say...BEST WEDDING TOPPER EVER. There are a ton of Halloween toppers out there, but I really think that this one is the best out of all of them. I think it's very unique and super classy.

My cake doesn't have to look exactly like this, I just thought this was really pretty and it went well with my fall theme. I definitely want a tall, fancy cake made with fondant though.

Does this picture look familiar to you? It's a still from Hocus Pocus, haha. For music at my wedding I want a live band, playing mainly swing/old jazz music. They need to be dressed exactly like this. There is no arguing about it.

"Witchcraft" by Frank Sinatra. I'd like this song to be the first one my future husband or wife and I dance to at our wedding. It'd be a planned out dance of course, something that we took lessons weeks ahead of time in order to perfect.

So I finally caved in and got a Weebly account. I think having a program like Dreamweaver made me automatically feel as though it was going to be the best option as far as website building went, but this has definitely been a LOT less complicated than messing around with HTML and spending hours toying with coding. Yes, I definitely prefer this. It actually looks as though I might have a full website up and running within the next day or so, then all I need to do is move it over to my domain and I'll be good to go. 

Things have been really crazy as far as life in general has been lately. Derek and I ended our relationship a week ago, the play wrapped, and I lost one of my best friends. I mean, I suppose she really wasn't one of my best friends if it took such a petty situation for her to disguard my friendship, but still. Shit's rough and I'm not a fan. I just don't understand how people can view each other as disposable. It doesn't compute with me and never has. When I love someone and care about someone, I will stand by that person until they give me a damn good reason not to; only then will I walk away. I don't think I could ever stop being someone's friend because I was too stubborn to admit I did something wrong, or because I simply didn't want them around anymore. At least not someone I ever truly cared about. Whatever.

This weekend should be intersting. Brittany and I are supposed to go up to Penn State for a sex toys party with our friend Alys, but I'm suddenly becoming a bit iffy about it. Social situations just haven't been awesome for me lately; my Depakote has made me really anxious and I know the solution is starting on Lithium so that they can ween me off of the Depakote, but I'm nervous about that as well. Plus if I stay in Butler I can go to Joey's graduation party on Saturday, which might end up being more promising for me in the long run. Hmph. I think I'm going to paint Joey something; I need to be more artistic and I enjoy making people gifts. He and I went shopping yesterday and it was a ridiculous amount of fun.

I think I'm going to go work out now.